response to facing the truth...

i am once again reminded of the amazing friends and family i am so blessed and lucky to know and have in my life! i am truly grateful to each and every person who responded to my blog entry...either through direct comment, email, facebook, or phone. you all are truly wonderful human beings!
thank you for all of your advice, encouragement and words of wisdom. i wish i could respond to each of you individually, but i'm sure you will understand, when i say that come 9pm, i am COMPLETELY exhausted from the day. i think that after this post, i will hang out with derek, recap the numerous (yes, there were many!) "moments" i experienced today and then head upstairs to continue reading my new bible...raising your spirited child.
before i leave you, i will provide with a link to child find, since many people have asked questions about it.
again, i thank each and every one of you from the tips of my toes (which badly need a pedi!) all the way up to my hair (which is now much shorter, btw!). i am confident that we, as a family, will get through this. although i may not be able to see it right now, i know there is a light at the end of this tunnel. i welcome you to follow and support us on our journey. my mom said it well yesterday when she said, "amy, this is your mission. you may not know just what to to, but this is your mission!" mom...mission accepted...and i can't wait to someday say, "mission accomplished!!!"

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who had more fun?

one of andrew's friends from school had a birthday party yesterday. i told derek i would take andrew to the party, so he could stay home and work while jacob took a nap. i have to admit, i wasn't totally thrilled about it, since i had imagined (aka dreamed about) spending sunday at the pool...just me, my ipod and a good book. but, off we went to the party...andrew was VERY excited, because he loves going to karley's house. she has a huge basement FILLED with tons of toys!

well, i must say, andrew DEFINITELY had a lot of fun...between the toys, moon bounce, trampoline & of course, cake! i secretly think though, that i may have had a better time at the party than andrew. you see, andrew was having so much fun, that he played just about the whole time. i believe i may have only heard "mommy i need you" two times during the 3 hours we were there...once to cool off his hot dog and the other to help open his juice box. other than those two moments, i was left to chat with the other moms...aka, have a real conversation! in addition to these nice conversations, i enjoyed lunch, cake & ice cream, without a being interrupted by a child needing something...WOW!!! sign me up for the next bday party!

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the last supper

well, the time has come for us to bid adieu to my parent's house. along with my parents and sister, and sometimes a dog or 2, i spent much of my life calling this house my home. tonight, we will meet at the house, which is now completely empty, for one last meal. yes, i did say it's completely empty...so we'll be dining picnic style! it is definitely very weird to think that this will be the last time i will be in the house. so, please bear with me (or stop reading now) as i reflect a bit on the the many memories i have of "home"...

***the first things that comes to mind, are of course, the bad things leigh and i did...(here it goes mom and dad...if you didn't know yet, you do now!)

*sneaking out during sleepovers

*leigh hosting a "small party" and getting busted (i was at camp and can remember like it was yesterday, reading the letter she sent me!)

*having boys over

*raking the yard (endlessly) after getting in trouble at school

***some of the good times that immediately come to mind are...

*having great neighbors as a kid and always having someone to play with

*celebrating hanukkah and other holidays as a family

*trick or treating

*coming home from summers away at camp..to a card and gift on my pillow

*always knowing that on my birthday, cards would be waiting for me on the kitchen table at breakfast...and an ice cream cake would be in the freezer that night :)

*my chalkboard (emily...you know what i'm talking about!)

*being picked up for formals, homecoming and prom at that house

*opening the front door to meet derek in person for the first time and knowing there was something special about this guy

*celebrating the birth of BOTH of my sons, by having their bris at the house

*andrew calling "my" room, "his" room when he spent the night at nanny and papa's

this will be a fun and emotional night...i'm sure some tears will be shed as we close the door, literally, on this chapter of our lives.

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